Leap of Faith

http://cherieroedirksen.com/2012/02/15/the-space-within-series-inner-art/

I've been thinking about taking a leap of faith. I've been thinking a lot about taking that jump - of faith, and then it occurred to me - how can a person with no faith take a leap of faith, so the proceeding days were spent contemplating my faith and I realized something. I do have faith. Faith in humanity. Faith in nature. Faith in my loved ones. Faith in myself. Despite years of being let down by others and myself, I still have faith. Ok, this is HUGE.

I started sketching in a journal. Sort of the beginnings of a dream journal. My mind is focused. I am ready to take a leap of faith.

Now, some of you might think, but Lisa, you did take a leap of faith when you picked up and left to move to South Dakota for grad school, or when you moved to Denver, or when you moved back and forth from Denver to NC 3 times, or how about when you sold all your possessions and moved to Burma, and then to Bolivia and don't forget the DR. Yes, I've been thinking about that and what I've realized is that none of those were leaps of faith, but instead acts of running scared. That's my MO, my way of coping, to run. I've already thought about running from here.

And then I realized that I can't keep running. I don't want to keep running. I have this faith, in the universe, that I have something to accomplish, and I need to get on track.

I don't regret my past decisions, at all. I am 40, single, childless and FREE to take a leap of faith. This is so exciting. I am ecstatic.

What does this actually look like? Do I quit my job? Do I look for another job? Aren't I biased? Won't I try and find my comfort zone again? How do I open the door? I'll let you know, because I'm going for it.